[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 6/11/2004 07:39:00 PM

Somebody Like You
There's a new wind blowin' like I've never known.
I'm breathin' deeper than I've ever done.
And it sure feels good, to finally feel the way I do.
I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you.

An' I'm lettin' go of all my lonely yesterdays.
I've forgiven myself for the mistakes I've made.
Now there's just one thing, the only thing I wanna do, mmm, mmm.
I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you.

Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine,
Shinin' down on me and you.
When you put your arms around me,
You let me know there's nothing in this world I can't do.

I used to run in circles goin' no-where fast.miss... miss...
me: ya?
voice: milo bar *throw*
me: *catch. stunned*

i'm flabbergasted by this point. And then before i leave, i'm slipped a box of Fox candy. are all delivery men this nice?


2. I also look poor.

lady at the lift: (in hokkien) miss you have phone?
me: ya
lady at the lift: (in hokkien) can make a call for me?
me: ...?
lady at the life: (in chinese) you dont understand hokkien?
me: *shake head*

so she asks me to make a call to a friend at my block for her. i oblige.

lady at the lift: miss, i pay you!
me: ...?!
lady at the lift: 5 dollars!
me: ....?!

5 bucks for a call. i should stand around public telephones from now on.



understand hokkien?
me: *shake head*

so she asks me to make a call to a friend at my block for her. i oblige.

lady at the lift: miss, i pay you!
me: ...?!
lady at the lift: 5 dollars!
me: ....?!

5 bucks for a call. i should stand around public telephones from now on.

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 6/11/2004 07:39:00 PM

you wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to goim stuck in this stupid place in china called guangzhou, and this stupid place bans me frm reading blogs cuz tt mite influence me to go against e ctry n write bad stuff abt e ctry cuz its all communist like n all tt crap. hmm.. then how comne i can get here?? bloody useless idiots. and if i can get here, y cant i read other ppl's blogs!? bloody shit.. its not like i can influence them to get all anti communist, which i am, and most or all singaporeans are anywae.. and then my computer just has to haf a new adsl modem which works for fuck and i cant even get to hotmail but i can get to this website which they ban! WAD THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH CHINA!!!!!! *heaves realli heavily* im ok now...i tink. but dun worry. this comp will just kill me frm mental exhaustion and anger anytime soon. yupps, so anywaes. my ousins n uncle n aunty n bro just went back to singapore..i miss them so much... esp zara.. this is e first time ive ever missed her since we've been going for holidaes since i can rmbr. ): and my chek... and my brother... haix~ of course i can rmmbr all those times zara n gordon watched vcds here like crazee and the qian long ending was like shit.. and how zara n i bargained for tt adidas bag n how scared we'd be at nite cuz of all e ghost stories jeremy told us ( thanks alot jeremy )x ) and we'd snuggle up so closely and keep our eyes shut so we wun see any "ghosts"..haha~ yeah.then how me n zara wld shop for stuff for me bro.. how we talked abt ugly guys n all that.. how she managed to make me wake up in e afternoon for e first time in my life.. (: those daes were fun.. but u noe what they say, time files when u're having fun. damn philosophy. wel, thruout their holidae here, it was realli fun. haha! i cut my hair n highlighted it a lil.. but its pretty much faded by now.. and we went to e hot springs! but it was unisex.. so no one was naked~ which wld b good cuz e men there wld haf been blinded by my ugly flat body n get paralysed by now. then me n zara went for sauna cuz we both put on weight.. which is, yes, bad. but e sauna was, yes, worse. we almost died of suffocation in a 70 degrees celsius room and tho we weren hot, we were sweating buckets. thn of course we couln realli take not breathing proper air, and we got out in 15 mins.. and our record of wieghr loss is.. 0.5kg. so thus conclusion is : dun waste ur tim in a bloody sauna, lose weight by sweating n being able to breathe at e same time.. which is.. for good n bad, exercise. anywaes, just for e heck of it, my cousin n i waxed out eyebrows.. not painful~ not effective either. i look exactly e same, and so does she. so basically, dun come to china if u wanna look good, e ppl here look so bad, u tink they din run plastic surgery here. onli come to guangzhou for food n shopping... cuz even tho they rip u off. they tend to forget ure frm singapore anywae.. and its still alotttt cheaper. but just for e heck of it, bargain like hell. ud find e experience most rewarding, and if u get a scar on ur butt if u get thrown out of e store, tts also alrite, u get a story to tel ur kids when u grow up, if they wanna listen to u~ then zarie got e fever here on her last nite.. so we were freaking out pretty badly if she couldn get past e thermal scanners. part of me wanted her to pass, n part of me din realli wnna... but i figured she'd hate guangzhou so much she wouldn wanna come here anymr if she had to go hospital here.. then id b even lonelier.. i tink this is like.. e closest ive been with my cousin since we were born.. and that kinda just makes me cherish her more... i wish they'd all come back~ china sucks u noe that. its like ppl wld go "lets go australia n on e way we can visit huever stays there!its gonna b so fun!" no person in their right mind wld go "lets go to guangzhou where its almost totallu sars infected and visit sam n do nothing there but figure out wad theyre saying in canto n notice how well they ty to rip us off and if we realli need it that badly, we can stay there longer and prolly die of sars too!its gonna be so much fun!" yeah.. right... but my aunty n uncle wanna come back cuz they speak canto n dun get ripped off.. so they wanna come back n shop~ tt mite b good. i wish i cld just return to singapore tho.. i dun haf to worry abt getting kidnapped half the time n ppl asking for ransome of a 10 yr old gal... ive finished all my vcds, and my comp has a prob.. i dun realli haf much to look forward to realli.. excpt wait to return to singapire.. which wld b in dec.. that doesn help very much.. all in all.. i wanan get out of here. i miss my family so much. now i noe y they say blood runs thicker than water.. ultimately, i dun tink id ever haf been able to last for this month w.o them... my bro's coming back in nov.. i hope his business starts off realli well and he makes a bundle, id be so happy for him.. cuz if not, he'd kill me for suggesting to buy those stuff to sell.. haha. i cant wait for jik they all to get here too.. or just waiting my life away to start skool at least. hmmm... (and no charleen, im still not stalking e ang mohs.) haaha.. u noe, they sais its not good to live in e past, but its pretty hard to move on if ure in such a backward ctry... and id onli be willing to be happy if i was back in singapore.. and im still counting the dae as they go by...

and it's ok if you had to go away
oh, just remember the telephone
well they're working it both ways
but if i never ever hear them ring
if nothing else i think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's ok
cause i'll remember everything you sang

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 6/03/2004 02:59:00 PM

u drive me crazy
fine desmond! i'll write i'll write! hahahha. force me sommr! im ur mother kaye. hmph~ kaes, so anywaes, im sure alot of ppl wanna noe wad ive been up to here in china and whether its nice n all~ but just so u all rmbr (to ppl hu haf been asking me how shanghai is, im sorry i wouldn noe..) im in bloody GUANGZHOU kayes?? so stop asking me if shanghai is cold unless u pay me 200 bucks to fly there n find out. tho heh, u noe, i realli dun mind. anywhere is better than ths shit hole. and i bet shanghai has roxy~ ): oh yeah oh yeah! i got benny chan vcd!!!!! hahah. in ur face petrina ng! x) and he;s like e emperor n all... this emperor noes kung fu!!! so cool! hahahhaha!and e gal he likes is like.. sooo pretty!i just wish they din dub it in chinese then i can hear his real voice n i can drool over him... hahahah.im trying to look for his photo online.. but to no avail. haix.. ): sad sad me. hahahah. i shall go ask my beauty where she get her pics frm~ but in e show rite he's like.. half botak w e long ponytail behind kind... u noe rite?? then its so ugly. but nvm.. i still love him. hahahah! x) alrite alrite, enuff benny chan time spent b4 u all get off my blog... anywaes, im talking to charleen now and shes mad... cuz i told her i saw 2 cute ang mo guys hu lives mear me now.. and theni saaid i cant be boithered abt guys now, and she tinks im mad n shes trying to brainwash me to stalk them... gee... tt gal's got a serious problem w ang mo guys...she even scolded me when i told her i will reject huever goes after me! crazee gal! hahahha~ madness.. but anywaes, ive been to my skool already~ and they all look like rather nice ppl... and its realli not like lizzie mcguire series type clothes, ud b amazed at how simple it can b. realli. so simple to e fact tt they wear pants to half their asses during summer time, which is aug when i start skool. and b4 guys get stupid ideas, im not taking photos even if u pay me.. talk abt paying me.. we're talking abt how much?? hahhaha. sorry. munny makes e world go rnd doesn it. hahah. so if ure paying me.. hahha, be prepared to pay for e price if i get sued for sexual harrassment k? but the gals their r like... realli UNflat. as percompared to me.... u see, i can b otherwise categorised under household appliances-scrubbing board. or i can fit a tile in a airport runway...so in case anyone needs me for any of those, im looking for a job kayes!!! hahaha. im so scared to start skool, but in honour of st nix, i shall wear my pe clothes! hahahah! at least tt wae, i wun b judged on my clothes, cuz its skool u after all.. then i can slowly see wad they wear.. n decide. im smart huh! hahah! i noe i noe.. no need to tell me.. haha. -rotten tomatoes thrown at me- tsk.. jealousy... hahaha. okies okies..enuff shit,first week update- i got high fever n sore throat n saw a bloody doc for 400 sing bucks. like, hello! i can go back to singapore for 300 and see a doctor for 20 man! butof course id hafta figure a way to get back to singapore w high fever, and yes, e best ctry to have travvelled to, guangzhou. arh!!!! im going mad!!! then second week got better cuz i got my 8 immortakls vcds... then watch till 3rd week.. then.. i got my benny chan one!!!! heee!!! im watching it e 2nd time liaos!!!! so handsome!!! *ahem* right.. but ui noe, i told my bro (yes,just let me talk abt him a lil whilr mr la....) tt i will marry benny chan, and he tell me go n die.. so sad. wad kinda of brother.. waaah~ so then my relatives came n we did sooooo much shopping! hahhaah! then i got my wall pasted w all my cards n photos.. then all fall out.. so sad.. now i gotta go n paste them back all over again~ bahhh.. hahahah! now me n desmond betting! if i lose i hafta kiss a guy! poor guy... poor poor guy... hahahah! but ill win! and ill get edo sushi meals... yayee. x)) now waiting for my relatives to come back frm homg kong to get back here.. i missie them loadies! i miss my butch!!! butch,where for art thou butch! im so sad n depressed... mum asking me to go.. shall tink of mr stuff to type tmr yeah! buayyessss~*

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 5/27/2004 05:28:00 PM

i'd do anything- simple plan- to green house, sjen, and baby
Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
but now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of droping out of school
And leave this place
to never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep I can't forget you
nanana (...)
And I'd do anything for you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 4/26/2004 04:19:00 PM

i miss YOU- blink 182
hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley, we can live like jack and sally
if we want, where you can alwaes find me
we'll have halloween on christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
wish this never ends
( miss you miss you miss you)

where are you, and im so sorry
i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight
i need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness, comes creeping on,
so haunting everytime
and as i stared i counted
webs from all the spiders,
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

dont waste your time on me
you're already the voice inside my head
I MISS YOU

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 4/26/2004 03:49:00 PM

i miss you
hey ho wadaya noe, so i haven written for a realli long time as u all can see but i decided to turn over a new leaf and be a realli good gal n write. either that or i just feel like writing. i tink i just feel like writing. time has passed so fast and its slipping thru my fingers faster than the finest sand could ever even try to.. and then memories flash past faster than e raging rapids.. then these drops of salt water that drip down my face, i noe not why they fall, for all i can keep are happy thots in my mind.. then yet why do i feel so miserabble.. maybe its cuz.. i just cant let go of these things im clinging on so tightly to.. i ges.. haix.. so many things haf happened, n i haven written for so long cuz ive been so busy w cheer n all.. but i shall just write here b4 i lose e chance to type in singapore since im leaving this sundae. pretty unbelievable tt time passes so fast rite? haix.. sports dae.. it was great. i had fun, and yes, so wad if green house loast, we still made history? or maybe im just bullshitting to make myself feel better abt wad crap ive done.. like fall off e pyramid? why do i keep falling off stupid pyramids? this is so not e first fucking time. i nv tot i'dve cried that much that nite.. when we knew we wre last.. shock did sink in.. then i just broke down when ui saw yoshika cry and everyone was so depressed.. even the winners were crying.. and somehow.. it made me tink, so yes.. we lost, but tp see everyone hugging n crying, onli then did i feel e spirit of st nix. combined cheer realli rocked. one pyramid i din fall off frm.. ahaha. green house still rocks e most, n i tink we were great, just so happens.. the rest were better. i feel realli bad to my captain cuz she.. haix.. i dunno how to say it also lah.. i knew she was realli trying so hard to prevent this, but some things.. u just cant change them. but i got some photod of sports dae i shall upload when im in china.. china sux. booooo. it was fun, to run arnd in a different costume frm every1 else actuali.. u feel.. somewad.. special? perks of being a cheerleader i ges?? ahah. better than staying back to dance dae n nite.. budden.. i lost so much weight! i miss cheer! n i tink my pe teacher hates me cuz i skipped so much pe. she tinks im a lazy ass slacker. hey, so maybe teachers do noe everythng. miss oh sucks. just to everyone, her temper's been realli fucked up lately, n i shall talk abt mrs yeo now. she is a bloody ass mutther fuckker for taking away my handphone. bitch, i was supposed to stop skool last week! not tmr! bloody shit tpad brain w too much mascara. i hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u. just so u noe.. i mean, in case i din mention it, i hate u to my guts!!!! made me feel so disabled for 4 daes.. and then baby's hp gets confiscated too.. and then.. i miss him sooooooo much! but jon cheered me up dinch u jon? ahahha. thx sooo much dearie. thx soo much. ahahah. tonite got my show! then can see benny chan!!! he's so goodlooking! but then, in e show, gao er sucks. how can u go n fall for murong xue! how how how! wad abt biyao! wad abt...ME!!??!! i mean, ok, so u dun even noe i exist, but still.. i just hope u noe, i love u benny!! ahahaha. but ur character in e show still sucks. pls go n kill murong xue. she's too ugly to b ur wife! and biyao is sooo much better! and how can u kiss her for so long!!! wad abt me!!!!! im so hurt. waaaahhh. i shall tell u, u hurt my fren n me w ur stupid kissing. x( but im forgiving.. n i still love u.. cuz im a superficial shit. even tho jojo tinks ure ugly, i dunch care. she liked u last time oso mahh.. keep criticising me. but ill prolly nv get to see u in my life cuz ure a bloody hong kong actor. hahha. i tink my mum was rite, im obsessed.. ahaha. oh wel, its still for a good cause. but wad abt biyao... she's so poor thing.. stupid li longji.. then in e end u go n fall for yang gui fei hu's some fat bitch! wads ur prob man! hmmmmppppphhhhh. tt isnt in e show but its still real history.. just so u all noe. haha. i very lazy now.. so i shall type ltr tonite! byebye! muackks.

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 4/26/2004 03:40:00 PM

they said when u were born, the doctor slapped ur mama
ahahah! its frm tt mr personality song ive been dancing too for ages n ages! im so sick of it. wel, ok, not realli. e song's damn farnie. its sth like "they call u mr personality cuz ure so ugly, mr personality, ure so ugly! they said that when u were born, the doctor slappped ur mama! is that your face or did ur neck just throw up!" ahaha. kk, its mean, makes me tink abt william hung, but hey, its just a cheerleading song, n i tink its kinda funny. so tired now. am sick todae frm last nite to this morn, couldn slep till 3 am! and i tink i just rilled arnd in pain for e whole entire nite, that was e greatest nite ever. not. k anywaes, ytd me n tiffy went back to my old condo, thomson grove. then we saw like, my name witten everywhere n stuff, this gal seemed realli bad tho, this sam person. she killed like, a guy? or prob just reallli scrwed him upside down. ot tt we wanna noe do we. haah. then we went to e pool. i took off my pinafore and waded in e baby pool, n then, i just couldn resist it, i jumped into e adult pool! god, its sooooo cooling! n niceeee.. ahahah. then my whole pe shirt was wett. yupps. could see thru. so gross. stupid pe shirt. then guys were passing, n tiffy said the were gals so i din care, then they were guys!!! stupid tiffy! luckily, n hopefully, they did not see anytng. not that theres anytng to see anyw. then me n tiffy went to play at e playgrnd, got some snacks and walked out. i was so dripping wet! when we reahcd back to skool for cheerleading, i told pple i swam n they din believe me! ahah. wel, tiffy's my witness. jill said i was mad, nah. im just a lil unwell. hahah. danced quite a lot for non pom, n i got to drill! now i noe y jill does it. its kinda fun actualli. just tt i feel kinda bad telling ppl wad they do wrong. n prolly i haven been in cheer for tt long, but i tink we're pretty good now, tho at times we realli do look abit shitty, or very very shitty. which im sure jill agrees. cuz she wansta win. argh!! combined house! i haven learnt red house one yet! n i can hardly rmbr yellow house's one! im deda im dead im dead. but now theyre all learning green house one. ahahaha. for once i dun feel like the idiot learning, i can to teach! like how often does tt hapen? haha. so its a goodie thing. lucky judging or vetting not tdae, im sick. lucky iots not todae, or jill will kill me. haix.. printed out my house cheer, for nothing! stayed up all nite to do work, for nting! at least.. no maths todae! no maths todae! no science todae! no science toidae! mrs tan n mrs yeo hate me. but tts ok, i dun lurve them. fuck u two if u 2 can read this. mrs yeo, i understand y u hate me, i haven handed in prolly mr than 10 wrksheets. nnoe wad, i dun giv a amn. so go jump off a building. and mrs tan. hu noes wtf i did to u. u used to just ignore me, but now u keep picking on me. like, wtf is ur prob dude! u were teachinh and asking us to write our notes. i was looking for my notes, n u scolded me and said u were teaching. yeah DUH thats y i was looking for my notes rite. ure such a piece of shit. i haf no idea w3ad i did to u. but i will soon if u continue treaing me like dirt. bitch.sorry. am just damn pissed lah hor. been keeping it inside for damn long. HAPPY ONE DAY LATE B'DAE JON! din write ytd cuz i was too lazy. hope u had a great bdae anyw. love u lots dear. lemme think if theres anymr to bitch abt skool. yes, i feel like killing YOU i wun say hu YOU are, but im just this - close to punching ur face in. YOU prolly wun read this, but just so i can let it all out. i HATE YOU. ok, not so strong, I TOTALLY CANNOT STAND UR FACE, if i had a chance, YOUd be going for major surgery to join ur whole bloody stinky body back together. HEAR ME!!!! ok. am done screaming. sorry. i told u, i m very very angry. been keeping this for v long. tiffy noes hu i am talking abt dun u tiffy. hahah. k. cheena high boys are outta our skool and are at home tightening their short teeny weeny pants and making them fit higher up to their ribcages now n are enjoying sucking back up and kissing their tchers asses again. god for u. now i noe y u all are so stinky. keep kissing ppl's asses. sick shits. cant stand u all. kk, not all cheena high boys. just those hu came our skool, just freaking stay out. my sleepover din work out as planned. every1 couldn come, n i was too lazy to plan! ahaha. hu cares. went out w jon n got a new wallet! yayies. watched e eye n big fish. big fish is good, but e eye just sucks. n yes, i hate u for eternity vishnu. nigel kept laughing at e movie?? its a stopid ghost story for crying out loud man! kaes, but he did make it kinda funny i ges. n i ate loads of pasta ova e hols. jon treated me n i ate it w wini on sat. wini darl, pls go get e wallet too! pls pls pls!~ ahahha.oh yeah! sat i went 50 mins late for cat class! ahaha! me n butch walked in n every1 was... staring? k. it was so not my fault. it was butch! stoopid woman made me go to bedok, at 3 55, so reached at 4 55 at class. and she still wanted to go toilet! argh! k.. so did i actualli. nature calls. hahas. wel, we stayed in class n almost got bored to death by drama mama. then we left n me n mel went to thomson to eat kfc! i swear im gonna get fat if i go out w mel. she alwaes makes me wanna eat. stoopid woman. alwaes go broke on food when im w her, hmph. wini oso another one. u 2 ah. pay for my marie france fees i tell u. haha. took so many neos w gift. so funny. we look so funny! so fun! left skool early to take. haha. now i haf so many many neos. w wini, n ling, n butch n char, n now, gift. hey, tt suddenly sounds like alot! ahahah. e hols haf been so fun! hahah. shall go add chou ying now. i tink ive written too much. shall go off. bye everyone, lurve ya loads!

[sam joy]* 2 wisdom gal wants you so badly at 3/24/2004 10:58:00 AM